Getting things back on track

So, a lot of things have been going on in my life, but things are starting to slow down and click into place. So it’s time to slow down and take a good look at what’s been going on these past months.


I changed jobs this year and I honestly think that’s the best decision I made in years! No more 12 hour shifts, and a lot less taking the job home with me because of too much responsibility. I’m really liking it at the new place so far, though I miss some of the people from the old one. Regulars and co-workers that I had grown close to, but it’s not like I’ll never see them. I have phone-numbers to several of them and have met a few outside of work. So it works out well. My new co-workers are good people as well, at least from what I’ve been able to tell, and I don’t think I’m wrong. All in all, this was a big step in the right direction for me, hopefully I can let go of some of the exhaustion that had become associated with work and find the fun in it again.


I’ve been working hard for some time, failing once, but finally managed to pass my driver’s test. Which means that I am officially abandoning my scooter in favor of a car, and I couldn’t be happier about it! I’ve been wanting to get rid of that headache inducing piece of shit for years, it’s never worked quite like it should. So that’s another big step in the right direction for my life, no more scooter-driving in the middle of winter! That should help keep my health more stable when it’s cold out, which is a good thing.


The first part of my Tales of Gaile series is coming along great (yes, I’m well aware that I’ve said that several times before) and the draft is currently in the hands of M for a critical read-through. It’s terrifying, but necessary and hopefully they won’t rip it into too many shreds. It’s the first time someone else is allowed to read the whole thing and not just the first chapter, so my nerves are a little frayed at the edges because of it. It’s my 7-year-old baby after all, I’m a bit protective of it.

I also really want to go back to my blogging roots, and start rambling about TV shows and things like that again. There are so many things that I’ve wanted to talk about but haven’t gotten around to, and it’s quickly piling up. I already have a few ideas of what I want to do, so it’s just a matter of actually putting it together into something readable.

All in all my life seems to be on its way of pulling itself together, something that has been badly needed for a long time. It’s been a jumbled mess for far too long, and it’s time to take back the control and find the time to do things that makes me feel good, the things that I do for my own sake and have been put on hold.

Time to get answers!

Hey there everyone! I am planning something a little different for my YouTube channel this new years and I want your help. I want to do a Q&A that will go up on New years eve and will be collecting questions from various sources throughout December. So if you have anything you want me to answer, just leave me a comment and I’ll pick the most interesting ones to answer for you!

A stone of worry…

Been wrestling with doubt and worry for a while now and feel the need to vent a little.

My workplace is sold and the new owners take over on Dec 1st. They do want to keep me on and I think I’ve gotten my salary request through. So far, so good. I am however getting second thoughts. While no contracts are written yet, I have verbally agreed to stay on for a time to help them get settled, despite not really feeling up to it. The reason for this is my initial feeling about the new owners. I liked them. They seemed like people that I could get along well with. But over time that feeling has changed somewhat. I still think that they are nice people, but as time goes on it feels like their attitude is slowly changing, and the way things are going I’m not as sure that it’s going to work out.

For one it feels like a lot of the responsibility in the diner will be put on me – more than I am comfortable with if I’m being honest – because neither of the pair have any clue what they’re doing. None of them can handle the kitchen alone, not to mention the cash registers. Add to that the ordering of food and other things and I smell a complete disaster in the works. And frankly, I’d rather not be caught up in it.

Apart from the whole responsibility thing, I fear that the girl (yes, girl, she’s a year younger than me) that is gonna be the one spending the most time there might be the really bossy type. And though I know that what the boss decides goes, if she starts telling me how to do my job when she’s not able to do it herself, I can’t guarantee that we are not going to clash badly.

As it stands I’ve agreed to stay for a few months for two reasons and two reasons only. To allow myself a little more time to work out what I should do instead, and out of loyalty to our regular customers. I am very fond of them and would be very sorry to see their social meeting place go to ruin. At the same time I am going to be a lot stricter with my limits. My coworkers often berate me for being too kind and keep telling me to say no but that’s not gonna be an issue anymore. There is a big difference between working yourself to the bone to support people that you know and care about, which I actually do with my current bosses, and doing the same for complete strangers. Not even I am that kind and I am done working myself into the ground.

So there’s the situation at the moment, and I can only hope that everything works out for the best.

A lot going on…

So, I’ve been kinda MIA over here for a while (sweet Keepers it’s been months!) and I thought it was time for a small update. My time has been, and continue to be eaten away by all the things I have going on in my life at the moment. Apart from working full-time, and a bit more than that if we are being honest, I’m currently working on getting my drivers licence before winter kicks in. In what little free time I have around those I do my best to maintain the schedule of my gaming channel, spend time with D, fit a little writing in and try to find time for my family and friends. Needless to say I wish there were more hours in the day. Unfortunately this means that the blog gets neglected, although I have several posts in the making, because so many other things take priority.

Luckily I’m getting a two week semi-vacation starting tomorrow where I can catch up a little and get my breath back. I call it a semi-vacation because I still need to get in and work for 1 1/2 day during those two weeks, otherwise my boss will burn herself out. It was supposed to be a full blown vacation really, but the girl who had promised to cover my hours suddenly decided to be a a bitch and pull out at the last second… This was the best compromise we could manage.

In other news my workplace is currently up for sale and it looks like it might be sold fairly quickly. There have been people looking at it that seem very keen to say the least, they just need to talk to their bank about a loan. From what they’ve said it seems like they are very interested in keeping me on, but it’s gonna depend a lot on what they will offer in terms of hours and salary. I’m not in the least interested in continuing to work 200 hours a month, so we’ll have to see what they have in mind.

Anyway, there are a lot of stuff going on right now. Let’s hope that it calms down soon!

Feeling Lazy

Today is shaping up to be a complete lazy day. Not that I’m complaining, since I had a rather full day yesterday. I started off meeting mom and a friend of hers for a few hours walk in the forest getting some refreshing time and inspiration-photos. Seriously, I got a few perfect photos to have on hand when writing on Tales of Gaile ^^


That left me a bit tired and with my knee aching slightly when I had to go in to work for the afternoon and evening, but it was totally worth it!

Working was not much fun though, since I was already tired from three full 12h days before, but I dragged myself through it with coffee and sugar ^^ That always works.

I am feeling it today though… My entire body is sore from the combination of working too much and the long walk in the forest, but that’s what today is for. Resting up. So that’s what I’ll do, sit around doing a lot of nothing ^^

Decisions, decisions…

Okay, so Welcome to Night Vale is coming back to Europe in October and I have a decision to make. No, the question is not whether I will be going or not, because that’s a given. The question is where I will be going. So far I’ve seen The Librarian in Stockholm and The Investigators in London and I have no idea where I’m going to aim at getting tickets this year. Should I stay closer to home and go to Stockholm, or go back to London again? Or maybe somewhere else all together? Ireland perhaps? I’ve never been to Ireland and they say that it’s beautiful. Either way I need to decide soon, because the tickets goes on sale on the 19th and I want to get them on that day to be sure that I get it.

So, anyone else going?

How much is too much?

Before I say anything else I need to get this out there: I am incredibly grateful that I have a job that pays my bills, not everyone is that lucky.
But there are days, more and more frequently, when I find myself wondering if it’s worth it. When I come home late at night after working 11½-13 hours, with a bone-deep ache in my body and completely drained of energy, only to do it all again the next day. The past two weeks or so have been a cycle of working three full days, having one off, and I’m feeling the strain. While my mind is happy to stay a child, my body is quite forcefully reminding me that it no longer belongs to a teenager and can’t handle the break-neck pace it used to. My sleep-schedule is shot, I haven’t been able to sleep a full night, without waking up at least once, in weeks and I’ve lost what little appetite I had. I find myself struggling to keep up with the regulars, my attention drifting more easily than usual and I frequently lose track of what I was doing. Luckily I have a three-day weekend off starting tomorrow, and I’m gonna use it fully to recharge my batteries. Maybe if I sleep for three days this constant tiredness will finally leave. Here’s hoping.

Oh, and have a wonderful Easter everyone!